Thursday, September 30, 2010


The Glories of Our Blood and State
By James Shirley

The glories of our blood and state
Are shadows, not substantial things;
There is no armor against fate;
Death lays his icy hand on kings.
Scepter and crown
Must tumble down
And in the dust be equal made
With the poor crooked scythe and spade.

Some men with swords may reap the field
And plant fresh laurels where they kill,
But their strong nerves at last must yield;
They tame but one another still.
Early or late
They stoop to fate
And must give up their murmuring breath,
When they, pale captives, creep to death.

The garlands wither on your brow,
Then boast no more your mighty deeds;
Upon death's purple alter now
See where the victor-victim bleeds.
Your heads must come
To the cold tomb;
Only the actions of the just
Smell sweet and blossom in their dust.

Monday, September 27, 2010


And by the way, on a different note, I want to get a tattoo. My parents are saying no, until I'm eighteen . . . so I've got alot of time to think about it. But this is what I'm thinking...
What I love most about it is the symbolism of it. I want to get it on my right shoulder, so it will face the other way. And it won't be very big. But after a year or so of consideration, I think this is the best option for me(:


Just a reminder that it's not about us, it's about Him . . . This song was written by someone when he was very mad at God and didn't understand His purpose for everything. So he wrote the song to remind himself that it's not about his feelings, it's about God and what God did for us. So as you go through your Monday complaining about being tired or traffic, keep this song in mind.

How He Loves Us
He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

Yeah, He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves.

We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
So Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way…

He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves.

Well, I thought about You the day Stephen died,
And You met me between my breaking.
I know that I still love You, God, despite the agony.
...They want to tell me You're cruel,
But if Stephen could sing, he'd say it's not true, cause...

Cause He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us.
Whoa! how He loves us.
Whoa! how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves.


Saturday, September 25, 2010


My life has been extremely hectic lately . . . which is why I haven't been posting on my blog. I've had to prioritize a lot of things, and blogging just hasn't been top on the list...

For those of you that know and love the Lord, me and my family could really use your prayer. Things are getting really difficult.

I need to get a job, FAST. I need to start pitching in to pay for things. I'm more than willing to help, but getting a job in this economy is harder than it sounds . . . Until I get a job, God provides, right? This - of all the times in my life, including when I got diabetes - is the week that I should be or so easily could be angry at God and telling you all that He does not provide. But instead, He's been reminding me every day that a little bit of faith goes a very long way. So remember that if you have a bad day this week, or you're stressed, or you feel like giving up.

A little bit of faith goes a long way.

Sorry this post is so vague . . . it's the best I can do right now.

Sunday, September 12, 2010


Wow...what a week. I'm back at school. Believe me, it has not been an easy week. Almost all my classes this year will be challenging. And not only that, but I haven't adjusted to the organization school requires yet. My mind feels scattered all the time! I'm still getting my homework done, and I haven't lost any important handouts or anything. But my head just feels so jumbled! Which, in return, is of course stressing me out. I've given myself enough breaks from school that I'm not quite exploding with stress yet...but with 8 periods and homework in every single one over the weekend, you can imagine how overwhelmed I am! I'm going to need to take a bunch of notes in all my classes, or else I don't think I'll remember any of the information. I already had to take a college level placement test in math, because he wanted us to refresh our brains and what not. I was so mad about it because my head hurt so much after taking it! But it turns out...I would have gotten into a college level class, according to my score. So maybe I shouldn't be totally mad about it. This should be an interesting year, because it already feels completely different from any year I've had before. Maybe this is what it means to be an upperclassman.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010


The reason I haven't been posting is because I've been on vacation! In the amazing LA. I have never seen anything like this city, let me tell you... Well, I'd like to tell you, but instead I'll just post some pictures(:
The trip was SO fun(: It was my first time in Disneyland...actually, pretty much my first time in California. I'm so happy I got to go, and I can't wait to go back(: